Pumpkin patch and thoughts on life while eating candy corn

Chunk at the pumpkin patch 2015

I type this with a sadness and a little bit of fear wedged somewhere in between. This week has been so much fun. Today, I took Chunk to the pumpkin patch at one of our local farms. I was more excited to take her this year, because she is now old enough to get some enjoyment out of touching the pumpkins. As far as I could tell, she had a blast. She experienced her first hay ride around the farm and got the chance to play with some pumpkins. I didn't brave the corn maze with her, for fear that we'd get lost. During the hay ride, she squealed with delight as the tractor pulled us around the farm and the wind blew her hair. It was such a joyous moment to see. This week has been full of those wonderful moments whether its with her or my husband and I have been happy just to have witnessed them. The sadness and fear that fall within these moments are a causation of a future surgery I must undergo this coming Thursday. For those readers that don't know, I was born with a serious heart disease and though its been under control with medication for sometime now, doctors want a defibrillator implanted. Yes, I know that this is a routine procedure, however, there is always that slight chance that your heart doesn't start again once they test the device. Its difficult for me because I know this is what's best,however, what happens to my family if it goes wrong? I dislike very much putting my life in other peoples' hands. My husband will be the first to say that I do this everyday on the road, but I logically can't log it into my brain. I am one of those cruncher type of people that will do anything to keep foreign items or chemicals from my body. I like to believe I'm as close to holistic and natural as mother nature intended. (I'm eating candy corn as I type this. I also can contradict myself, candy corn is full of everything but nature and her intended ingredients.) I know my readers have previously loved my posts because they have been humorous in nature. I do apologize for the lack there of as the last 4 or so posts have been somewhat serious or dull.

touching hay for the first time

If I ask anything now of my readers its a wish, prayer, spell or kind words for a speedy recovery.

Thank you for reading, updates will be available as the date and time draw near.

Chunks first hay ride